I’ll try to give you a short answer because again, these are questions which we grapple with on a very regular basis. So thankfully, I think we live in a season in the world where we recognize that any academic plays multiple roles. And there is now the recognition that if you are a female academic almost in any part of the world, you are also having to navigate caregiving responsibilities, expectations of a particular stereotype of what it means to be a woman, etc. But over and above that, what I have learned for myself is that when you are working in a place like Sri Lanka in the field of law, an academic who chooses to recognize the questions of justice and injustice is also expected to play several other roles, and sometimes all at the same time. So, the question of actively being involved in an ongoing crisis, offering your perspective based on the knowledge that you've acquired, analyzing the problem, offering different options.
21:35It's basically like a doctor in an emergency for the period of that crisis. If you choose to get involved, then you are constantly on call and having to respond. And several of us went through this experience last year. Now while you do that, you have to also still remain faithful to your role as a teacher, and the individual commitments you have either as a mother or a friend, and then also the responsibilities you have towards yourself. And I can tell you, Bethan, that you can never really go through periods of crisis thinking about all of this and asking yourself, well, how am I balancing it? There is no such balance. You’re responding on the go. And of course, you make mistakes, and you make miscalculations, and in my case, I still have young children, almost always one of them will fall sick during that period. So, you have to switch constantly between significantly different functions.
22:40And when you're doing that, in addition to having that desire of wanting to respond and serve, you are also constantly feeling guilty about so many different things. You are feeling guilty about sometimes not doing enough, sometimes saying no, guilty about what you haven't done, and then feeling guilty about the other obligations that you have, which you neglected. And then at some point, exhaustion and fatigue sets in as well. And it can, if you are not careful, lead you to a very difficult place. In many ways, being a Christian has been a wonderful, liberating factor in all of this because if you trust that God is sovereign, and [that] ultimately he's in control, and you are only human, you can find freedom in that and not feel like you have to respond [to all the calls on your time]. Although there will be instances in which if you don't respond sometimes no one else will. So, living with the tension of feeling guilty about it, but also trusting that God in his sovereign wisdom understands and sees much more than I ever will.
24:03There is also a sense in which being an academic in a place like Sri Lanka has exposed me to a full range of life experiences. So because I'm in the field of constitutional law, I interact with constitutional electors institutions that come under the Constitution, and that could be at a high level, but because of the different choices I've made and the kind of spaces I've chosen to be in, I've also had the opportunity to engage with people at the community level. So, one of the sort of fascinating experiences I had last year was to go to the different protest sites that were in Colombo and talk about the Constitution with people - whoever turned up. And I have seen those experiences were very special because here you are having to talk about your field, not in the classroom, which is in many ways sterile, I would say, [but] where you're talking to people who've finished their work and come and sat in this talk on their way home.
25:18And people from different walks of life, some who've read the Constitution, some who've only heard about it, and we engage as citizens. It was a beautiful thing. Of course, we were doing it under very difficult circumstances, and we were all under a lot of anxiety and stress. But it was also challenging because you are not talking to students who've done the reading and come to class and who are sort of thinking in a particular way, but speaking to society at large, wonderful in one way, but also challenging in another. So, there are very serious costs involved in terms of what it does to you as a person. There are very high opportunity costs involved because when you respond to ongoing situations, you have to give up on the plan you have for your academic writing and other things that you like to do. But I think I'm beginning to make my peace with it and know that you have to have a long-term view of this way of living.